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Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Just changed all the strings on my guitar.
Took me only 2 bloody hours.

I don't know why but it sounds different and I have no idea where is the problem.
Wrong resting method?
New string sounds different from old string?
Tuner malfunction?

Damn.
When can I ever restring my guitar with confidence? :(

9:38 PM

Monday, February 20, 2012

OMG I CAN'T FOCUS ON MY STUDIES!

Dragged myself out of bed today. Didn't feel well at all but still I went to school. Brain was confounded with jam songs, it was rather irritating to the point that I had to clear my head with YUI songs. Looks like I'm slowly being a fan girl.

Seriously I need to work hard for studies right now but my brain was buzzing with many irritating thoughts. Was still feeling extremely irritated with my own performance yesterday. It gave me a very cold feeling, freezing my heart and giving me the impression that I'm not made for this at all. It drenched my ambition and gave me doubts again.

But well, like I've said, one just can't stop. Once you stop it will be all over and I don't want it to be over! I don't want to give up my chances like I've did in the past. I won't cower in fear any more! Hated that feeling!
Remember the day that you didn't have courage to step into the sportshall?
Remember the day of your last match?
Remember those days that you were crazily painting?

All of those things brought me here today and I just can't stop.
I can't stop.
This may be thing that can kill me, but I can't stop.
But don't ever ever forget the fun.

Till the day fate steers me to another path, I'll keep moving.
Sometimes my own optimism amazes me.
It's good to be thick-skinned. :D

OMG I SHOULD BE STUDYING NOWWWWW OMG!!!!!
Oh btw, HSBC LPGA is coming soon! Can't wait to watch!!

9:03 PM

My mp3 crashed.
It seems like my music world is crashing too.

There is an urgent need for me to improve but I'm not sure what to do or what I'm doing now is in the correct direction. I'm rather confused right now.
There is a decision to be made soon and I don't know if I should continue with it. I wonder if continuing will be of any use to me. I don't want to throw my money and time away.

Argh, I think I should not go for it after all. I have a strange feeling I'll throw my money and time away.
Remember the TRI-FORCE? S.G.J! Don't forget it.
I'll do the S myself and GJ will require outside help. Both will require much of my time and effort, not forgetting much money too. Ah, can't wait for my life to clear out and be removed of all the weeds so that I can focus on my loves.

Ever since joining SB, I've been feeling rather tight spiritually. I'm really kinda afraid that I can't step up to the game. But it's not something that I can just give up! I feel lethargic but I must move on and nobody can help me unless I help myself.
It all boils down to my own ears, my own listening.

I guess I'm just afraid that I'm getting nowhere, because the scary thing about this is that you don't know where you stand. You may have improved, but you don't know about it. If only there is a gauge, a level I can see. Damn, I need a guide.

Ahh...I kinda miss those days where I didn't have a dream.

12:20 AM

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Damn, it's really hard but I find my own voice hard to love.
Others can say it sounds nice, but I can never shrug off the feeling that they are just being nice to me.
It's equally weird listening to my recorded voice.

I want to be a guitarist.
Really bad.
I want to be a painter too.
But cleaning up is really troublesome.

EDAGBE!
When will I reach above average?
When will I be good enough for a Fender?

12:57 PM

Monday, February 13, 2012

Why do I feel that the more I try the further it gets?
Why?
Because it is unrealistic?
Or that I can't imagine myself in that position?
And why are my hands feeling cold whenever I think about it?

I guess I have no choice but to move on.
One day my hands will stop feeling cold.

6:21 PM

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Time is passing really quick nowadays.
It has been zooming ever since the announcement of my prelim dates.
There is less than a month to go before my first paper! And I can't start studying now because I'm faced with the last Triwizard task - Microsoft Access 2007! I've completed the first 2 task with exceeding expectations and I wouldn't want to screw it up in the last leg! :(

I've a complete Harry Potter set!
As can be read, I've been speed reading the Harry Potter series again. Bought the 4 remaining books from some roadside stall in China. Awfully cheap and obviously fake, since the Hippogriff Harry and Hermione are sitting on is nearly flying away from the cover page. But for that kind of price, I shouldn't complain. What matters in a book is the contents and I'm very happy re-reading it again.

It's kinda funny how I've read to the point where Harry is in his 5th year and facing his O.W.L.s when I'm facing my prelims soon. I guess Harry will be taking his N.E.W.T.s in May when I'm taking my main exam. After all of it, I'll be facing you-know-what, yes, the working life.
If my life is similar to the book, then obviously I will triumph.
Oh yes, my life will be good.

"I can change my life"
Life, YUI

7:19 PM

Friday, January 06, 2012

Had a very unfulfilling FI lesson just now, wasn't paying much attention as I wanted to. Sad.

Random notes:

1) Was reading the Braille in the lift. Realized that up till now, I haven really taken a good look at it.

2) Saw someone netting fishes from Hougang huge drain again. Was wondering where all my cute fishes went. Oh well, I always believed in karma. Shall let karma do the job of cleaning those murderers up.

3) Every time I received a msg from an unknown number, I get very excited.

4) I'm listening to YUI's songs almost everyday.

5) I can see the blisters on my left hand and I'm secretly happy about it.

6) Recently, I've invested in neopets stocks.

7) Didn't dream of anything and slept well these days, must be the power of my newly purchased silk blanket.

8) My nose is blocked in a very peculiar way.

9) I hope I can find a perm job that pays me $1000 and ends at 12pm.

10) Hope comes to those who hope for it.

6:37 PM

Monday, January 02, 2012

I'm not very used to the new blogger layout.

Oh well...

Yeah! Happy new year everyone!! Spent my new year in China: Yunnan - Kunming city!

Was shopping for shoes in their flea market when fireworks started popping in the sky! ^^

The most memorable place in Yunnan was Lijiang's snow mountain. Omg, it's the most beautiful place I've seen in my life. It's the perfect mixture of mountains, rocks, trees and water. Just looking at that place makes me feel that just being alive is great enough.

This year is gonna be a tough year for me. I gave myself so much to achieve...

Oh well, since we're young only once why not give it your all?

I told myself to work hard today, but now I just feel like sleeping. Hah!

3:07 PM