Back in Singapore. Feeling dejected or maybe a better term would be head heavy. I just feel that I am not being very clear headed recently. Could it be the surplus of food that my body has to adapt to? I just feel lethargic and misty headed all the time. Like in a dream.

Anyway, the good thing about me is that I do not get myself in a dejected state for too long. I will somehow "wake" up and then focus on the work that needs to be cleared. Although I say that, it does not mean that I am effectively clearing the suppose work that needs to be done or gaining knowledge. I just get myself into this positive mode which does not necessarily translates to being productive. If you know what I mean...

How is it that some people can go into this ultra focus mode and excel. How is it that I am not able to focus and repeatedly falling short.  

Omg I blogged halfway and got distracted with some other chores. Looks like I really need to re-structure my brain.

Time to get my ass moving.

Wow time passes really fast. I will be flying back to Singapore next week.

Makes me think that life is indeed very short and that I should make the most fun out of it.

I am still unemployed, no wait, funempoloyed I mean and I have yet to locate where I should be heading to next.

I was frustrated recently and I put lots of pressure on myself. But then I think again, life is so short so why not just enjoy it to my fullest. These days, I sleep and wake at whichever time I like. I am not going to force myself into getting a "good" habit. I will just go with the flow. Like how I am crazy awake at this hour but that was because I slept from 9pm-1am just now.

I am just doing all the things that I enjoy now but also at the same time, try to gain a little useful skill or knowledge in the process.

Anyway happiness is key to a good life! Stay happy!

Been sleeping late again, there are times where I just feel like I don't want to sleep.

Like now.

I was on the bed but just couldn't get to sleep. I know that if I focus on sleeping, I would be able to go into sleep mode but I just didn't want to.

It is so hard to sleep early and wake early.

Maybe I should just embrace this owl nature of mine.

Is there a reason for me to resist this?

What if....all my issues in life...was caused by not drinking enough water?

I was checking on how to remove dark eye circles and suggestion was to be more hydrated. 

I was checking how to improve skin texture, it was suggest to be more hydrated.

How to lose weight, more hydrated.

Etc, etc, etc...

Solution = Hydration

I was just missing water.

The solution has always been so simple.

It is the first day of July! I am excited to kick start my transformation journey. Basically I just need to faster lose weight so that I can squeeze in the calories for my numerous overseas trips in August.

I also need to be more focused as this is practically like the 3rd month that I am not working...can't believe time passes so fast. So since it is a happy free time for me, I should make the full use of it.

Because of a lack of routine hours confining me, I have been sleeping really really late. I want to change this bad habit of mine but I just couldn't get to sleep. If I tried, I would have slept, but something just keeps me up from trying to go to sleep.

A bad habit that I must kick.

So many goals in July. I need to buck up! :)

 Been living an unemployed life since May. It has been rather fulfilling to be honest. These days I am doing nothing but the things that I like. Been going to lots of Table Tennis and Badminton practices, to the point that I am feeling my body crashing out. I am pushing myself hard is because this is a very precious period of free time for me. I would not have this chance if I was working. So this is indeed a very good feeling.

I think it would be hard for me to get back to work after this relaxing time. It is hard to do fixed hours in an office, enforcing the hours on me. Once you taste freedom, it is hard to go back to being chained.

I really wonder what where will I be heading in the future. I have planned nothing but trips after trips. I should be really focusing on finding a job but I am just so much more inclined to enjoy myself.

Oh when will I be able to be my own boss, and get to do what I like plus enjoy the freedom of time. Freedom of time does not mean that I am not working, I just want to be able to decide on what to do with the hours I have. It is sick for me to head to work doing something I have no feelings for, just to make ends meet.

To happy times ahead! :)

Oh, on a separate topic, I do think that my table tennis and badminton skills are mediocre now. I aim to get so much more stronger. NEED TO BE THE VERY BEST!

I wonder how I should feel. 

I just feel emotionally weak at the moment so I wanted to blog.

And yet again I am sleeping late. 

I wonder why I just can't keep a good habit.

What should I do with myself.

Weird weird weird.

Unstable heart and mind.

I need Shisa power!