Omg, my back hurts. Been working all day long all month ever since I've accepted the new role.
It's almost like...I'm just existing; living but no life.
I do get extremely stress, especially when the connection is slow and that I can't seem to do anything but wait for the bloody file to load. Why is it loading slow you ask? Because I'm working from home. Staying in office for more than 12 hours is a huge torture for me, especially when the each task is a bomb. When you new to a role, all the tasks are bombs that rips you apart. And when I'm ripped, I just want to go home and rest. Which of course, can't be happening as I still have the bombs to diffuse. So I'm still working even when I'm back home.
In short, I'm working and working be it that I'm in office or not.
However, I do feel a weird surge of energy. The urge to diffuse all the bombs before they blow does give me satisfaction. And I'm pulled to work every morning just so I can clear some bombs, I've been waking up at a real good time and reaching office at a shiok hour. Just that when the bombs are never ending, it makes me a little depress and sad. And then I will start to question about my life and what is the purpose of it. At times, I do indeed feel like crying but you know, there is nothing crying can help you with. The bombs will still blow and you will still be ripped.
I try to make the best out of whatever I have at the moment. Who knows, maybe this is the 'spark' I'm looking for. This stress may push me far enough for my untapped potential to unleash. The focus that I need may be here and be here to stay.
In order to get my life back I need to be stronger. Need to focus on the 'tri-force', the only thing that actually matters to me right now.
Just do it and get the hell outta there. It's time to reclaim the lost lands!
OMG MY SIS IS GOING TO HK TO WORK FOR 3 MTHS!! NOOOOO!!
