btw, I settled many unsettled things today. Felt kinda good.
Rubbish are meant for the bin and no where else.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Oh, too bad.
OH SHUT UP.
DAMMIT. I am sick of your cynical remarks. SICK of it. SICK SICK SICK SICK SICK.
You owe me my life and nth u do can repay my lost past and future.
I really want to shut the whole world up. Just trust and believe in me ok..for once. TRUST and BELIEVE. AND WHY CAN'T U DO JUST THAT??!!!
But I am sick of it. I don't need all your shits. Don't try to pin your failed hopes on me and blaming me for not fulfilling it. I am not you and never will be.
DAmm, now my world is in chaos. Life is starting to get meaningless and dull.
Once again, I am not doing something right... and what the hell is it?? why is that fucker able to do what she wants and why can't I?? Life is really unfair..and I am gonna use unfair methods now. No point being the nice person around...
Idiots are meant for the graves. DIE you idiots.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Without my dreams, I have nothing. but my dreams are wavering..I am starting to doubt myself. Sheesh..even though I told myself that it may happen, I still can't stop myself from crying.
"I can't even create a kids show now"
Of all the fucking shits in life, I just need one respectable thing to happen. and why doesn't that freaking happen??
the feeling of disappointment, the disappearing optimism..
when will I ever see the light? tread lightly girl, you are stepping on my dreams.
Monday, May 11, 2009
Went Bukit Timah Hill last sat to celebrate mothers' day. (my mother chose the location)
Anyway, she told us that it will only take 30min to climb up n down.
Indeed, the way up was easy cause it was just walking up the slope. My mum and my sis went the easier but longer route up the summit while my dad and I took the harder but shorter path. Reached the summit with only a few beads of sweat. No kick.
Then.. my mother suddenly suggested walking down with another route she has never tried before- the Rengas Route. Usually, my mum will just take the the same slope down again...but I think she wanted to show us more of the forest, seeing how we owned the hill with no trouble. Ok, so we took the path.
There were steep steps down and then it was the forest all around us. Forest and forest..more trees and more mud. It was endless but we kept our hopes high, thinking that we will eventually make our way out. But slowly, we were less optimistic.
It seemed that we are slowly going up the hill and not down. We were thinking that maybe this is one huge loop that brings us up to the summit again. And by that time, we were so deep into the forest that we just can't backtrack and return to the starting point. We have to proceed on.. and we ran out of water. and I started seeing ppl that I have previously seen on the summit. Creepy, like a Stephen King novel.
Finally, I found the map.
It was indeed a LOOP. and it was the biggest most challenging loop in BTH. The Dairy Farm Loop.
Yup, so in the end..instead of the promised 30mins, we took about 3 hours instead. When we cleared the last flight of steps and reached the road, it was such a mental salvation. We were so hungry and SO freaking thirsty.
Washed our shoes, said farewell to the monkeys and drove all the way to turf city. Ate lunch and my mom, being who she is...and we have guessed..wants to shop..at GIANT. She was very exhausted..walking last and everything during the mountain adventure..but when it comes to GIANT, she is one women that does know the word exhaustion.
It amuses both me and my sis greatly, seeing the refreshed look on my mother's face. she kept taking small loops here and there..she will be choosing the freshest papaya and then she will backtrack to the vegs sections for more offers and then back to the fruits again to meet my father. Then they will backtrack to the vegs section and so on. I think its lovely the way my parents shop together. :) My father loves to shop for drinks and fruits, while my mother love to shop for vegs and snacks. So now u see why my house it always stocked with foodstuff that is enough to last us for a mth. It is a product of love HAHA! Love from both of my parents to us and the love for shopping.
All in all, it was a nice journey we made. My brother wasn't with us because he has swimming training and life guarding to do.
