Table tennis tournament yesterday. I won NYJC 3:1 and lost RJ 3:0.. I WAS SOOO CLOSE TO WINNING THAT RJ GIRL.. sheesh.. 14-16. Omg!! And Mr Au didn't ask if I wanted to join nationals individual... I WAS SO BLOODY PISSED!!! Now I can't play in my LAST national tournament..WTF ( and there are only 19 players! FREAK! I can easily get into top 8)
Came home rather late yesterday, about 8pm+. Bathed and tried to study for my Chemistry SPA. Somehow I fell asleep and woke up suddenly at 2am+.. forced myself to study till 4am+, nearly 5am I think.. Pon school today for the first time in my life (cause I can't wake up). Parents were super disappointed with me. Esp mum...bleh! Sorry!
Came to sch for SPA and table tennis practice. Thats all..and I just reached home from school. I think I am gonna sleep soon.. night!
Gosh! My horoscope is very very accurate!! The stars are finally guiding me :)
Thursday, March 22, 2007
'As illogical as it sounds, your heavy mood can be lightened by heavy thoughts. If you face whatever is troubling you and process it with as much honesty as you can, your worries will eventually fade away to nothing. But if you ignore the fact that something is wrong in your life, the problem will never be resolved! It will stick around, waiting to get some of your attention -- and it can wait forever if need be. Think things through today, and you'll feel better tomorrow.'
Yes, something is really troubling me. Treating my troubles with honesty? Nope, never with Anna and Sheryl. I don't know why I am so troubled..there is really nothing wrong actually.. So why am I so bothered???
Now I feel even more troubled cause I read something...Sheesh.. Is my heart broken?? I hope not..
Why am I so affected???? GOD DAMMIT! I feel so retarded!!
There is a weird lingering sadness within me too...WEIRD!! Everything is SO WERID! I think I am going crazy soon..or into a state of depression..I really hate this feeling.
I am a stupid girl toying with my own feelings. I really really love and hate to see you. you are very important to me...but you will never know..
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Went for table tennis practice today from 9am to 12pm. Met my new JC1 team mates! They are not really pro (like me)..but I can sure use them for competition! LOL so BHB.. At least with them, I can plan my strategies better. Now I have some HOPE.
After practice, me+yuping+jiajia+jingpei went Toa Payoh and upgraded our table tennis bats. I spent $30 on a piece of skin..Now I feel so excited!! AHAH *can't wait to try my new skin!!" Competitions are coming..so freaking fast. There is not enough time for me to train my team mates SHIT! Anyway, I won't chicken out this year. I AM GONNA FACE RJC FACE TO FACE!!!!!! I opted for doubles with Jiayi last year because I was not prepared to face my opponents since young. They improved sooo much while I am like stagnant. I hate this feeling. I HATE IT A LOT! ARGH!!
Came back school and met up with Swan, Kwan and Anna. We ate Long Johns again at TM. Ok, I am really sick of TM food already. Next time we will go White Sands and eat :P Kwan decided to come my house and do a bit of erm..touch up on our Econs project.. Anna tagged along too, although she was not invited. The 3 of them came and cleared my stock of food. Sweets, seaweed, packed drinks... Anna even made herself REAL comfy by sleeping on my mattress and watching TV WHILE happily eating away.
We got bored and went jinbo's house. We reached his floor and freaked him out. HAHA! Anna saw Ben & Jerry icecream in jin's fridge..so we took it out HAPPILY and gobbled it. The ice cream tasted weird and we asked jin when he bought it. Anna: " JIN! WHEN DID YOU BUY IT??" Jin: "Sze Ling should know when I brought it.." Sze Ling: " WHAT?? This was that tube you brought last time??? OMG!! That was SO LONG AGO!!!" Anna checked for the expiry date: FEB 13,2007 All:" OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" We felt really bad after that, especially swan.
We wanted to study today..but I guess we didn't..heh and now I feel like watching Trinity Blood..shit..when can I get my study mood back??
Saturday, March 10, 2007
My mom did it again. She trimmed my hair like nobody's business. I told her not to trim it too short and too thin but she did it again. Now I look like a cancer patient. I look dumb.
I don't like the topic on War and Terrorism because it makes me think A LOT. Then I will get headaches. I think I think way tooooo much. I am too old for my own good.
HAHA! Anna just messaged me that she don't want Mr. Anna anymore because of his very 'beautiful' pictures on photoshare. Talking about Anna..she nearly found my secret out. LOL But they will NEVER know..and I don't understand why they are so interested in the person I like. I mean..if I want to tell you I WILL tell you. I hope they stop digging into my secret or I will get angry+ sad. (The 2 emotions I hate)
I have no mood to study for Maths. I have no interest in Maths anymore..because Mr. Ong's way of teaching is not my style. I WILL fall asleep no matter what, because his voice is too monotonous. I am getting interested in Chemistry instead tho.. HAHA first time in my life man.. Hope I don't fail too badly for my Chemistry test, DONT DISCOURAGE ME ANYMORE PLEASE!!!
I love schooling! Back to study~
Am I weird?? I am not normal...
Thursday, March 08, 2007
OMG I am DAMN busy!!!
I need to finish my table tennis's noticeboard. I need to start studying my MATHS. I need to find my camera. I need to help my father write a letter. I need to print the FAS thing. I need to create a table tennis list for the people tml. I need to finish probability assignment.
I AM SO FREAKING BUSY!! Headache.
Chemistry was disappointing. I JUST can't remember..mental block? Not sure, but my brain was humming some Mr.Children song and it irritated me. When my brain starts to hum a tune, it means that I am gonna fail my paper. I wanted so badly to shout shut up.
After my noticeboard thing, I rushed to TM to collect my precious badminton racket. Re-stringed my racket to black BG66 strings..it is so cool now! :D Gonna have my first badminton tournament on Monday(debut of my badminton life)! Hope I don't under perform. I am gonna let my new racket ROAR!
&*)_&%()!%_&() *FATHER CAN YOU WAIT???* Why can't you understand your son's situation???? ARGH!!! Your not very capable son is taking 8 bloody subjects for O'Level and one ONLY need 6 subjects to go JC and I think your son will neither be happy nor be able to make it into a JC. So why are you making a fuss just because he listened to my advice and drop his pure to combine????STUPID!!! Eveyone, please stop making my life difficult. STUPID PRINTER WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM????? OMG NOWADAYS I CANT KEEP MY TEMPER AND I GET REAL IMPATIENT. Cool down..*breath in..breath out* OMG WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY INTERNET????ITS FREAKING SLOW!!!!ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Forget it. Good Night.
Do what you are good in rather then do what you think is good.
