The whole day today I felt like I was in a dream. Even now, I feel like I am in a dream and not really awake. There are times that you feel like that right? It is a numbing feeling and I am surprised that it can last the whole day.

I just feel sleepy. So sleepy. Yet, I do not want to sleep.

It feels like there are many things for me to do. Chores, tasks. Things that I need to focus on but can't. Because I am busy distracting myself with other things in life.

Sometimes I look into the mirror and wonder who is the person looking back. I am me, yet I am also not.

We do not need to recognize ourselves so there is no need to observe oneself. So in some ways, we are not that responsive to our own faces.

I am so sleepy, but I have to throw out the trash, hang the laundry and bring the laundry in. Iron them and wash the dishes.

Life is an endless, endless repetition of chores.

Sometimes I smile through the numbness and it will feel even weirder.