Next chapter in life. What awaits me? I'm saddened to see myself crumble.
This morning I had a fright. I shall see how it goes. Hopefully it's once again my imagination. Or my shrew logical thought process mapping to the worst case scenario.
It will heal. Will it? I'm pretty sacred...but I won't cower in fear.
Most days, I have thoughts about my own future. Starting to think about things that I've never thought of, like moving into a new phase of my life. I really wonder what I should do, it's pretty scary when everyone around you are moving and you are standing still.
And it's starting to feel lonely. I'm starting to lose many of my emotions and gaining more anxiety. Age does change a person, because the age gives you a change of your own environment.
In short, I think most importantly it's back to the strongest emotion again. What we all humans seek in life and what we all get hurt from.
I wonder if all my choices were wrong. Maybe I should have experienced it at least once. The feeling of being in love.
