My dad officially started his new career on Friday, the same day which I took mc. Am I going to start out on a new career soon? The performance went well, but nothing much is happening recently and I'm feeling the anxiety again. I've started to feel the pressure again, time is running out. I was distracted and escaped from the mission I set forth to accomplish. I distracted myself at work, working was actually distracting my ambitions. Working was actually less stressful, in other words, more enjoyable...something is not quite right here... Its fascinating how humans can manipulate themselves to work their way out of guilt, to work their way out of situations by giving themselves self-certified excuses. I'm updating this blog as some change has indeed happened. I got my driver licence and have drove 2 times in my dad's car. It would be for best to have my own vehicle soon. I made an appointment that scared me a little but it went quite alright and I felt all the pressure falling off my shoulders once it was over. Once again, I need to remind myself that I've to be stronger. There are certain things in life that you can't run away from. Never try to run! Because you can never be saved by others, the only strength you can rely on is from your own. Once a month of those and I may be saved back into the world of light. It may have been that easy after all. There will always be solutions, all I have to do is just to walk towards it, just like walking towards the light when in the tunnel. Do not be afraid! "Once you are in darkness it will only get darker, aim for the light!"
