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Friday, October 12, 2007

Today was a real fun day. Fun and laughter, peace and joy.
None of the a-level stress clinging onto me..the happiest day of my tpjc life.

One sided love is a sad thing.
That was what came to my mind during the audi performances.
Kwan, anna and I went early and got a gd seat. We then waited for our loved ones to come in..and I was seriously & desperately trying to see someone.
None of the ppl present in sch knew who I was looking for and I think they didn't notice that I was actually looking for someone...all was kept in my heart. I was trying so so bloody hard to locate my special someone.

I realized that flower cannot be replaced by even bee,fish nor arty.

I was praying so hard for someone to be present.. i was so really hoping to see that person one last time and was so scared that that person didn't come to sch at all. Just when I was losing hope..I saw!!
I saw saw saw saw saw!!
I was so happy..and I was really smiling to myself. The audi was dark, so nobody saw my emotions..and the performances started.

During the superb performances..I was stupidly stealing glances. I wonder if bee,fish and arty was just to help me forget that damm flower and that I didn't really like them at all. :(

There are certain things that can't be written in blogs.

Anyway, Abigail was being a slut. LOL
I don't know if I was affected or I was just trying to act affected. I don't have any heart-thumping blood rush thingy..
Guess you cant force yourself to become someone you aren't.

Studying in Airport tml??hrum..

I love school.I will miss all the fond memories. All the youth. All the life.

Thursday, October 04, 2007

I cannot concentrate nowadays.
I feel very stressed when studying with bijun.
I feel like shit.
I have no energy.
I still haven touch vectors.
I haven touch complex.
I haven touch inorganic chem.
I now understand why students commit suicided.
I cannot hear properly.
I cannot see properly.
I cannot walk properly.
I cannot sleep properly.
I get fustrated easily.
I am feeling damm stressed.
I dono what I should do anymore...

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Just blew the candles!
Haven tried the cake. I think it sucked..nvm! I only want to blow the cake..ahha no I meant, blow the candles.
My results sheesh. At least all my subs improved..just that there is no major change in the grades.
Econs was saddening. Nearly made me cry yesterday..but I held back my tears. Cannot cry!! When you cry, u are defeated.

It feels good when ppl bothered to at least text me a bday message. No presents for me this year.. Actually I've already got my present..all the sweet memories of being a youthful SEVENTEEN year old kid. I love all my friends! They are what made tpjc a wonderful place..you know, I was rotting with depression last year.
Special thanks to my best buddy... PEARLIN MEI!!! The bubble tea tasted really nice today! hahaah but you so bad, nv help me choose cake. btw, TPJC classroom nice hor?? :)

lalalala...27 more days..
terror awaits..

I keep having Alevel nightmares!! :(