I am feeling weird again. Like..there is not enough time.
Not enough time for? I don't even know. I just know that if I don't grab it now, I will never be able to. But what?
What am I on this Earth for? What is the purpose of my existence? Sometimes I wonder, maybe everyone is fake...not fake in the sense that they are not there...how do I describe...?? Its like its really weird being alive. I don't feel that I am myself sometimes.. Don't you feel it too? Like why are we able to see. Why are we able to feel. Its really amazing in a way..but scary too. And what happens when my life ends? What can I take with me?
My memories are getting blurry. I think I am blocking too much of it. I am living in my own world now, hah..not in an emotional way.. but a pathetic one.
I guess I am just really afraid that everything is gonna collapse. All the thoughts of a bright future.
Everything...I refuse. Please God. I just need one more chance.
