First day in Korea.
Took the 1.10am flight on Korean Air to Incheon Airport.
6 hours of agony on the plane.
Never slept a wink...at ALL.
My ear drums were also bursting with pain for the last 30mins till touchdown.

When we landed, it took us quite some time before our luggage was retrieved.
After that we went Macdonals and waited for everyone to gather.
We were then brought onto the bus and waited another 30 more mins for the others.
I fell into a deep sleep on the bus ride and was jolted awake to alight for my stop.

Lugged my luggage all the way in the rain to I-House IV.
Check-in and unpacked all the shit.
Went out again and window shopped at Myeongdong with Chloe and Yishan!
It was great fun but I was super duper tired.
I was very exhausted as I did not sleep at all except for the bus ride.

Oh man! So exciting!
To think that I will be in KOREA tomorrow!

Taking the overnight flight later.
Will be reaching Incheon at 8.30am.

I will miss my family so much!
My guitar and bed too.

Now I can't wait to settle into dorm.
Most worried about washing my clothes.
Never washed clothes before...

All the fear, excitement, sadness, happiness mixing into one!
A new special chapter is going to begin real soon!!

Korea trip is finalised!
Going to fly off sooonnnn!
Even though I am flying off soon, I feel super restless.
I have been yawning so much lately, till I'm sick of it and have been telling myself to stop doing it.
And my eyes are restless too, can't seem to stay open.

Something regarding eyes.
Do you realise that when you are closing your eyes, you are actually looking at your inner eyelid?
Your eyes are not 'closed', it's just the eyelids blocking the light from your eyes.
Just something random. But it gave me a slight shock when I had that sudden revelation.

And noticed something just now.
What a coincidences.
26 March and 21 June.
Both are days I reminded myself painfully of what I should become.
And they are both the birthdays of my 'aims'.

Something weird happened yesterday.
Some kind of emotion was suddenly flowing through me.
A kind of hate that is mixed with sadness, a conflicting state that paused my mind.

Everything was silenced and clarity came. There was so much clarity that it scared me.
I pitied myself and wondered when did the confidence that was always with me left.
I felt like a total fool.
I wonder how I landed myself in this state of sorriness.
Why I even continued my sloppiness, living day by day.
And all the shit I promised to do was left hanging with excuses.

Where is the determination that I seek, why did it not ever come to my rescue even once?
Where is the spark, where is my drive?
How did someone like me, who cherished ever so tightly my life has come to hate my own existence?

I need to change.
And I will keep this hatred in me,
as a reminder for all the things I should be doing.

I'm still waiting for my sis to come home from work. I don't know why but I can't seem to sleep when my sis is not at home. 


Can you imagine, she is still at work at this time! Since she is so busy at work, the only thing I can do for her is to help her level her character in RO. Hope that she feels better when she gets home. 
I've been playing my own character too...it's so fast to level in RO now. One can reach level 60 plus in just a day. It's nice to know that I can level that fast because I want to try playing another job.


Anyway, my Korea trip is sort of finalised. Been planning a lot these days and the only set back is Pohang. Wanted to attend their fireworks festival but the schedule for it is not up yet. Oh well, in any case, we've just settled our lodging in Busan for 3 nights. So all is well at the moment.


I just wish my sis will come back soon.

Played Pokemon Fire Red on GBA for 2 days straight. My god, my eyes are hurting now.
I would have gone on playing pokemon if I don't have to go out later.
Gotta catch them all!


Pokemon was my break from planning the Korea trip. Nearly done noting down all the areas of interest and details related.  Gosh, freedom day was ages ago and I've been busy ever since. My To-Do-List in June is hell long and I'm trying my best to clear them.
Gotta clear them all!


Dammit, I hate that website that I inquired about the telecaster they are selling. It's irritating when they claim to be 'friendly', 'helpful' and whatever bullshit but portrayed none. Crap man, why bother selling something when you don't even bother to reply to sales inquiries? What a jerk company. I will NEVER BUY FROM THERE!! NEVER!! Hate lousy services.


Anyway, I went PC show yesterday and bought this seriously amazing gadget. For just $5 bucks I get to use my PS2 controller on my computer while playing emulator games! My goodness! What a GENIUS invention! Furthermore, it's plug-and-play! No downloads whatsoever - plug PS2 controller to device, plug device to computer. That's all! No more radiating my palms on the notebook!  Now I'm so tempted to download more games to play. Should I bring the controller to Korea?? Heh...


Oh and I have to start Ragnarok soon. I always feel overwhelmed when playing MMORPGs because there is no 'restart' once you done something wrong. There is much research to do in character building, always very  afraid that I've pumped the wrong stats. But I have to start soon!! No more procrastination!