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Monday, August 27, 2012

YES, FIGHT I DID!
I got a job!!! ヽ(´▽｀)ノ

Signing my contract on Tuesday and starting work on Friday.
It's been a hectic but rather nice week for me.
Meeting friends, going for interviews and enjoying music.

My life is finally starting...
Feels a little weird.
No more being a "student".
So what am I now?? ヽ(　￣д￣;)ノ

Anyway I just cleared most of my university notes.
What a weird feeling too!
I feel like I should be keeping them, but then I tell myself what for?
In the end I threw them almost all away.
There are still many more things to clear!
I hope to clear up most of my things before I start working.

On a side note, I realised that I had read 51 books in 2011.
What a feat! haha
I wonder how many books I am going to read in 2012.

Oh man, I am so hungry now.
But it's 4am! Still so long away from breakfast. (´Д｀。)
What am I going to do?

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

UUUUUUUUUUU!!!!
It's always you that makes me go crazy and makes my heart drop!
Pumping hopes and dreams into me and overwhelming me!!

I ask myself why she has such an impact on me.
I know, because I want to be like her.
But we are so far apart. Will we ever ever be near?

Dammit. I feel really weird nowadays.
I guess it's because I'm living life very sloppily.
Look what I'm doing now? It's 3am and I am not sleeping yet!
And I sleep for freaking 10 hours a day.
Waking up at 2pm everyday gives me a bad day but I just can't wake up when my alarm sounds at 10am.

And look!
What about playing the guitar everyday and continuing my lesson?
What about studying Japanese in preparation for JLPT3 this year??
What about living life healthy and no eating after 8pm?
What about sleeping early and waking early??
What about all those things you said you were going to do???

Shouldn't I feel free now?
Why is my 'graduation' so incomplete? I should be feeling free like a bird and chasing all my dreams but yet, I am sleeping and gorging myself with food everyday and feeling sorry for myself.

I try to believe that I'm special.
I try to believe that I'm up for greater things.
I try to believe that I'm talented.
I try to believe that I'm strong.
Why do I deceiving myself everyday?

Because I want to keep on living a contented life.
Because I don't want everything to just end like that.
Especially so when nothing has started at all.
I tell myself it won't end since there is no start, but what if it never reaches anywhere?
I tell myself that at least it brings me a little closer to my hopes, at least the process will be a happy one.
But is that so?
I seem to be dreading everything right now.
Just dreading and never accomplishing anything.

I find it sad and funny at the same time.
And it's funny how her new song is "Fight".
Yes, "Fight" I will then.
Because that's the only thing I can do now.
I need to WAKE UP.
Tomorrow will be my D-Day.

REPLY 2012!!

Friday, August 17, 2012

YESHHHHH I graduated!!

Results are all lower than I expected but still it's over and I am moving forward no matter what.
No more looking back!
No more mugging!!!
No more exam stress!!

It weird. Sometimes I wonder if there is some force trying to squish me.
Every time I think I can ace my paper and it turns out that I can get only a 60+.
I wonder what I'm lacking in my answers that forbids me my A.

Looking at my grades, I think I should have worked harder.
Those are not very nice looking grades and to think that I've actually work hard.
Maybe not hard enough. It's always never enough for me huh.

Oh well, let it be.
Let it be, just let it be.

Finally it's over!
Cheers to a new me!

オメデトウ　( ^ _ ^)∠☆PAN！
あたらしいじんせいはじめます!!
o(^^o)(o^^)o わくわく

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

My heart yearns for a profession that is not related to my specialization.
I wonder if I should follow my heart.
But I was indeed very pleased with that call I received and my mood was greatly improved.

Today was a long day.
Mentally draining.
Makes me wonder a little about what areas of life I want to delve into.

I did set a target for myself for the next 2 years.
And just as amazing the work was contracted for 2 years and it's at my dream working location - CBP.
However, it has not much relation to what I've studied.
Pay is also considerably lower, but it's still decent.

Get experience and more money at the expense of my youth and precious time?
Or get some money with the bonus of more leisure time and less stress?

I am a carefree person and also I have a secret mission that needs to be accomplished.
So, I may just follow my heart this time.

It's kinda funny, I applied for a job that I have no interest in and got a job that I wanted in return.
Is it fated? Heh.

Wednesday, August 08, 2012

There are really some people on Earth that are not worth your attention at all.
They are so inconsiderate, rude and self-centred.

I met one of those recently and hell I was tormented.
You'll hope you never get to see them again, but they are always stuck in the same group as you.
If only I can unplug this prick.
It's easy to, just not quite morally sound.

But who is the moral judge here??!
Dammit.

Shoooo~
Away you go!!!
ShoooShoo
Get away from me!!
AHHHHH!!!!!!$$&#@)*@