Thursday, September 13, 2012
There was DRP exercise today.
I was rather looking forward to it but it made me more tired than usual.
I didn't even do much!
So looking forward to receiving mails and issuing out BGs...but those mails ended up to be those complex ones that I can't process. Non-Standard freaks will be the death of me.
Makes me feel so sad, as if I'm fighting a samurai with daikon.
I really need to do something.
I ask myself why I feel so restless everyday.
Maybe it's because I'm trying to live up to others' expectations?
Trying to do work great.
But I think I just need to be good.
There is not much reason for me to be great isn't it?
My brain is working even more laboriously when I'm not working.
I used up more energy and cells thinking about things related to work but not exactly meaning work.
Where did my energy go?!
I'm sure it did not leave me, but why doesn't it come out?
My scales are tipped.
I need balance.
I shall devourer information and get 100% next week.
Prison break time!!
The mad rush to fight for survival when death is right in front of you.
Restless energy will be stored up until it becomes rainbow energy for me.
My calmness scares me and thus I require constant slapping.
But in any case, life is not that bad for now.
