Feeling unpleasant and low energy these days. I wonder when I can be free of these thoughts. Every once in a month I feel this and I really hate it. 

I need to tune out all thoughts and focus. 

Doing customer service really makes you see the shit side of humans. Losing faith. I am sure they are good people on a usual basis. Good husbands, dad, friend, relative. But damn, they are monsters when things don't go their way. Self-certified F**ks. You are not at your best, you are who you are at your worst.

It sickens me to have to look at everyone and know that the monster is inside them. Especially those that are judging others all the time, pointing out monsters. YOU are the monster. LOOK in a mirror.

All the talk and the chatter. Just talking away in your rotting skins and never doing anything. How can people with the highest track records, the best IQ, the best qualifications not understand this simple nature. Top psychiatrist treating a patient, when they are more crazy then them. Earning millions, living in a big mansion, sucking the life from people seeking comfort. Like moths to a flame.

And why...why do I have a rotting skin. I, too, am rotting away. How long can I keep it up.

Help, I am leaking out.

The monster is coming out.