Happy belated birthday to me. I wanted to do this post on my actual birthday itself but I was rather busy that day so I did not have the time to blog.

I am here to record what happened so that I do not forget the feelings of gratitude. I tend to forget these feelings rather fast which makes me worried sometimes. Like I am turning into a cold blooded human.

My colleagues were really nice and they bought me surprise cake during work. I kind of suspected that they are doing it because it was quite obvious in some sense. But I had to act like I was surprised nevertheless for fear for spoiling their efforts. (Sui, Riri, Ho) 

I gave myself a nice body massage as a birthday gift. Well why not right, since I do love massages. It really helps me to relax my body and mind. And when I got home after massage, my sister and friends ordered some Uber eats for me. It was so sweet of them plan and think of that. (HL, Clarice, Sis, Stella)

The next day I was feeling emotional due to my hormonal change (period), so I was feeling very unmotivated at work and just feeling dejected in general. Then one of my colleague asked if I wanted Banh Mi and I said I am not that hungry so it is ok. And she said she will make it for me and do a special delivery to me later. I was thinking, oh no you don't have to purposely do that! So I said I will go to her house to eat instead. It was so sweet of her to want to prepare the bread for me. We went to supermarket and got the ingredients and she made 2 very delicious Banh Mi for me, plus fried some dumplings for me to eat (for fear that I will not get full). Thank you very much Linh! 

It is a strange feeling that people actually care about me. I feel like I am not someone that is worth this much effort. Well, not that I am a bad person but it is just that I am not such a sweet one. I do not really care for a person that deeply and I am pretty selfish so my thoughts are centered around myself mostly. I feel strongly at the moment, but it also passes when I leave. So I do care for a person deeply when I am with them but I also do not care at all when they are not around. My friends used to say that I will make a great psychologist because I can give my care without being affected by their circumstances. 

Well in any case, I take a mental note of their kindness and I ensure that I return them that when the opportunity arises. 

Year 2024 is nearly over and I am re-evaluating my goals for 2025 now. Stopped going for weekdays badminton lessons as a means of giving myself rest in terms of body and mind. There were a number of goals that I did not accomplish this year. A lot of effort but not much results would be how I summarized my year in 2024. I want to put only a few goals for myself next year and will work towards achieving them. Mainly, JLPT N1 and losing weight. I know 2025 will be a year that I will focus on revitalization - Project 15 I call it. Which is basically to try to revert my body and mind to when I was at 15 years old again. Not in the means of being childish, but more of being sharp again in mind and flexible again in body.

Fight Fight Fight Fight!