Monday, February 05, 2007
Many a times I wondered if true friends exist. I don't make many friends, I rather concentrate my sincerity and truthfulnesses on people that are worth to be my friends. I pride friendship above all others, because I cherish my life. Friends make my world colorful and I would never forget all the beautiful memories that will forever be within me. Reminiscence of the past will always make me teary, but I know that I should be happy because something that wonderful happened in my life (although I desire so much to be back to those youthful and carefree days)People are always not what they appear to be. I see clearly the reasoning behind every change in a person, the many different masks used for the many different occasions in their lives. It pains me so much to see them portraying what they are not and makes me wonder real hard about their true faces. Since young, I realized this painful fact, thus I never regarded anyone as my 'best friend'. They are just my friends and nothing more. But I want to believe that there are true friends out there who really cares about my feelings. I am always 'just in the crowd', laughing and smiling behind my beautiful friends. When friendship between my friends are broken, I step in to help. Only to get them happily together and discarding me. I am always chasing behind them, chasing the friendship that I really hope existed.Why can't they understand?? Why do YOU have to be so self-centered?? Your childishness and pride really gets on my nerve. You are not the only one entitled to anger and you can't have everything you want. Every time, we let you have it your way, because we are not as narrow minded as you are. But you really crossed the line today, I am so disappointed in you and I am not giving in to you anymore. You are always talking bad about people behind their back, but do you even realize that people are also talking the same way about you? Do you think that everyone likes you?? They are just being friendly because you are crazy. Most couldn't even care less what happens to you. Please stop all your stupid act and try to reflect on yourself. (which I think you wouldn't cause you are so full of ego). I am always talking good about you to those who complained to me, but you don't appreciate it at all. I don't want to lose a friend like you, but you are forcing me to.I want to experience the season of sakura and alleviate my soul
