While I was watching FMA, a colony of ants attacked my cup of water. They are like all over my cup and I was only drinking plain water.
I killed all of them..followed the trail of ants and did a total massacre. My table feels clean again.
But after I killed all of them, I started to ponder...why did I kill them? It was because I found them totally disgusting in a colony..and its like ewww..
But then again, that doesn't really gave me the right to take their lives. Actually, those ants are not doing any damage to my house..not trying to hurt me..not scaring me..they are just trying to survive. They must be real thirsty..to come out searching for water when already so many of them were killed.
Its quite sad to know that I actually enjoyed killing them, although I hesitated before killing half a colony (the other half ran back to their nest) and then I started giving my prayers to those dead ants and hope that they don't blame me. Then I saw 2 or 3 survivors walking aimlessly..walking in weird patterns..maybe trying to locate their scent back home.. But I felt as though they were mourning for their lost ones. That stopped me from killing any further..
It this the simple theory of war? People just kill cause they find you 'disgusting and yucky'? And because they can't communicate and understand your predicament, they are able to kill relentlessly without remorse? If only I can talk to the ants. I will move them to a better place other then my table. (well its my sis's table actually)
I did a stupid thing. I got a new cup of water and dripped a few drops of them near their nest. They are happily drinking now.
Looking at them again....it gives me the urge to kill..cause they are really like increasing in numbers.. NoNO! I must prevent myself from being a monster, every living little thing deserves to live. I am not anyone's God.
I hope more ppl can understand this maybe lame but truthful fact about what we are..how we humans are actually so selfish and hypocritical. Those ppl talking big are always looking high up..and neglecting the very small but crucial fact about life.
Please wake up!!!
Man..my whole body is itching. Are the dead ants taking revenge? :(
