OMG I LOVE JINBO!!! He just came over to my house and passed me this PINGU postcard book. That is so goddamm nice of him. XD
I am gonna get him a real big present this yr.
Today was a crappy day. Some really weird waves of emotions creeping up.. I feel sad and angry at the same time. I know I was being very rude to him..I scolded the F word countless times at his face to today and at the top of my voice. I really just wanted him to shut up. I know that I will not be able to convince him nicely, he just won't understand the pains and hardships I am going tru. And I will not try to communicate anymore, let this be what is it. I can laugh and converse, but I will forever bear this grudge. He makes my life so much harder and I sometimes wish that he will just disappear. But of course, I don't want him to be gone. I just want him to understand me but since he can't, I will just make him shut up. I won't try to understand whatever shit he is talking too.
