Went Zouk yesterday with JC friends + swan's guy friends. After 1 glass of Volka+Orange and 1 glass of Volka+Coke, I was drunk. Goodness me.
I felt so terrible and was nearly fainting, plus I wanted to puke. Luckily my stomach was rather empty, being my last eaten meal was at 1pm. But thanks to that I couldn't hold my liqueur. And I was so afraid I will lose sight of my friends, I keep grabbing on to them. I would really faint if I knew that I lost them in the monster crowd!
I felt uncomfortable with yesterday's conversations. What I am doing now is nothing to be embarrassed about, but I just don't feel like telling anyone. And worse, I don't really know how to lie. I don't even know why I'm so reluctant to speak about it! I think maybe it's a totally new area and direction I'm heading right now, like a totally new me, so I don't feeling like mixing it with my old life.
Slept at nearly 4am yesterday, so why the hell am I awake now??
