Monday, February 20, 2012
My mp3 crashed.
It seems like my music world is crashing too.
There is an urgent need for me to improve but I'm not sure what to do or what I'm doing now is in the correct direction. I'm rather confused right now.
There is a decision to be made soon and I don't know if I should continue with it. I wonder if continuing will be of any use to me. I don't want to throw my money and time away.
Argh, I think I should not go for it after all. I have a strange feeling I'll throw my money and time away.
Remember the TRI-FORCE? S.G.J! Don't forget it.
I'll do the S myself and GJ will require outside help. Both will require much of my time and effort, not forgetting much money too. Ah, can't wait for my life to clear out and be removed of all the weeds so that I can focus on my loves.
Ever since joining SB, I've been feeling rather tight spiritually. I'm really kinda afraid that I can't step up to the game. But it's not something that I can just give up! I feel lethargic but I must move on and nobody can help me unless I help myself.
It all boils down to my own ears, my own listening.
I guess I'm just afraid that I'm getting nowhere, because the scary thing about this is that you don't know where you stand. You may have improved, but you don't know about it. If only there is a gauge, a level I can see. Damn, I need a guide.
Ahh...I kinda miss those days where I didn't have a dream.
