April, oh yeah the number 4 month. I have decided on a few major items in my life. I was undecided for a long period of time but has finally cleared out most of the residual emotions. I've constantly lost sight of what was really important for me and was so influenced by other people's impressions. It has become sickening. What am I trying to prove? What am I trying to show? You know what? Nah, I just want to enjoy and be happy. Why sulk, why waste energy over mindless events? Why peg your emotions to other individuals?? These are very tiring things and I have my fair share of tiring things at the moment. I shall enjoy, work at my own pace and relax. I must first love myself. If I can't love myself, I don't have the ability to love others. Our time in life is limited, please enjoy every minute of it.
