It is funny how things are turning out these days. It feels very rocky, very non-smooth sailing. I fell asleep at 3 and now I'm awake. This is madness of the mind.

I hope I can calm myself down enough. There is something weighing down on me strongly and I really need to internalized it. If it is something I don't have much control over, then it should not be something I should be weighted down by. I should focus on the things that I can do instead of wasting time mulling over it. 

I also need to faster lose weight. If I do not have money, then I need to have health. If I am not working, then I should be enjoying.

Trust is important. Trust the process.

How much longer until my guardian angel comes back?