This week was a blast. I don't even rem what I did for the week exp being sick..
And its SAT! MY FAV DAY OF THE WEEK!!!! :)

I was just thinking about my blogskin..why I chose this current skin out of all the thousands online.
Requirements for TSL's blogskin:
1)It must have a simple but amazing design that gives me a very good first impression
2)Blog text must not have strong contrasting colours which makes it hard to read
3)Skins that fills up the whole page and I hate those skins that slants to the side

I think thats all. ahah what a dumb thing to write.

I had a dream yesterday. In my dream I saw my dream home. It was beautiful haha!
I had 3 seperate dreams. One was with my friends and one was some weird shit thing with super high content but its those dreams that one you wake up, you won't rem what was the main bulk of the story. Jinbo, swan and kwan were in my 3rd dream...

I am gonna watch yugioh from veoh now...
and I played DOTA!
Omg! Its a game which I though I WILL never play..and I actually enjoyed it! My god! x)

HI everyone!
Yes, I am still very awake at 2.29AM all thanks to the flu-cough-fever medication.
Man, I felt so drowsy and decided to take just a tiny bit of rest on my bed..but it turn out that I slept 4 hours instead. Woke up at 12.40AM..I had to pull myself out of bed to finish all my hw.
Yeah so now I am still trying to finish my hw.. I am a very good girl.

Bought the double-bunk bed from Ikea at $229! CHEAP.
Threw away the beds my sis and I slept in for 10+ years. Bye bye bed!

My body temperature today: 37.1
My mum says that if my fever still doesn't go down tomorrow, she will feed me something terrible. I can't wait
....for my fever to disappear.

I didn't watch the AI results show just now..gonna check the web now. EXCITING!
I was lucky yesterday man. I fell asleep (again) at some weird timing and woke up at 10.30pm. Switched on my TV and it was David.A! then CARLY! and then D.cook! :)

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! CARLY OUT??!?!! Jesus Christ man.

Jesus Christ
Jesus Christ
Who are you? What have you sacrificed?

its like obvious now that davidARCHULETA will win. Sheesh.. :(
AND I wasn't there to say bye bye and see carly off! Oh MAN OH MAN, of all days..She just have to get voted off TODAY WHILE I WAS ASLEEP.

Its harder for me to forgive and forget nowadays. I wonder why..

HAHA JUST CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN!!!! :D

SPONGECAKE SPONGECAKE SPONGECAKE SPONGECAKE

I slept at freaking 9pm yesterday!!!!! And SIS brought DOMOKUN!!! IT'S SO CUTE.
and she bought lots of other things home..and 2 boxes of FAKE food.
So now I got 10 dishes of miniature high class sushi and pastries each. ($35 dollars per box)

argh. My neighbour is irritating me with his drilling. ARGHH...

gtg and eat my noodles. YUMMY!
BYE.

Yesterday was quite a sucky day.
LOTS of sucky things happened. Man, bad things just like to happen All AT THE SAME TIME.
I guess its the mood..if u have a bad mood, things just don't go accordingly...
and my poor eyes. My poor little left eye..nearly went blind. :(

Went to the beach with swan and anna. It was great..the sea was beautiful (although it was quite dirty). I remembered going there with michelle while waiting for some SHE concert. We sat down on those rocks under the freaking hot sun for quite a long time. The sea and the sky that day was gorgeous! It was totally cloudless and the sea was freaking BLUE. It was really something..too bad I didn't have a camera at that time. Sheesh, how I wish I could see that perfect picture of peacefulness again. I miss all the beautiful past.

Anyway, the walk by the beach with 2 fat ladies was great. HAHA it was so funny. I mean, so many stupid things can happen just by walking on the pavement...HAHA
AND most importantly, both of them failed to draw the attention of their long-awaited hot guys. Anna couldn't even get the attention of hot Caucasians cycling 4-wheelers. :)
and she missed proposing to that hot guy carrying 5 cartons of Heineken beer.

YEAH! my sis is coming back from her 2wk tour from Japan!! TONIGHT AT 1.25am..MY SIS WILL BE BACK! :D
Should I fetch her? I woke up at 1pm today, so I should have enough sleep..hah
Oh damm the econs test tml. argh...

BTW there is no more competitions!! We reached top 6 and was killed off by SAJ and RJ. I played like shit..but whatever! Its over!!!! I am free again! Although I felt sad most of the time throughout the competitions, I won't be depressed because I still have time to pick up my skills. I will not give up table tennis. Even if I can't get something out of it, I must still persist. Table tennis has saved me countless times and it will too in the future. :)
LALALA! Stay happy!! I must smile more often. No more emo days!!! SMILE SMILE SMILE SMILE!!

But there is one thing bugging me right now. Should I change my super-anti to either hua mian or duan jiao?? Should I abandon my anti that was with me for nearly 10 years? :(
HOW??

"Take a little more care with how you eat and what you eat. While your diet might not be that bad, you should be more mindful of what you put into your body right now. Illness is a possibility, but it is one you can prevent with proper nutrition and a good night's sleep. Another good idea is to stop doing so much 'on the go' -- multi-tasking is only helping you accomplish a lot of things. It's not helping you accomplish them well. Quality is much more important than quantity right now."

Take a little more care with how you eat and what you eat? how you eat and what you eat???!!? omg. I really need to lose weight. :(

Fat pear and mok said I gained weight!! NOON!O!NONONO!!!!
I know I have gotten fatter..but its still sad to let ppl tell me that I am fat. Well, its good tho, cause I am now so determined to SLIM DOWN. :)
I will not skip PE anymore. I will run the damm 2.4k. I will jump 170cm. I will do 50 sit-ups. I will do 30 pull-ups. I will stretch for 40cm. I will DO ANYTHING TO SLIM DOWN!!!!!

Fought against YJC today and we won 4:1! :) Now we are finally in top 6..but most importantly, I am at least, if not fully, back to my own standard. Its still far from what I used to be, but I am trying real hard to get it back. I will try myself against HCI this Friday..I want to have a good match. :D

I have decided to sign up for some design course..so that if I did go back and retake my A levels, I will have a backup portfolio for my university application even if I don't get my straight As.
But the thing is, I want to go NUS because I want to train with the pro table tennis ppl there.
What should I choose? NUS table tennis or NTU design course? Both are the light in my life...hrum..why NUS don't have design course??? :(

I need to have a good maths tuition teacher. Any offers??

I feel like changing my blogskin. Should I?

I didn't go to school today. I just couldn't take the pressure anymore. Tml's competition is wrecking me up..I really just felt like leaving the whole team. Just forget about them and the whole competition. Last wk's competition was a disaster. I still won, but I wasn't at all happy about my victory. My skills were clearly gone..I just couldn't smack..it was very scary. I never felt that shitty in a competition before. Its like being out of a relationship...like something precious left me. It was really a terrible feeling.

I didn't want to wake up. My father was shouting shitty stuff about me, stuff like you are already a loser and you don't want to buck up...you have no self-love, you said u want to work hard and u don't want to go to sch? Ha ha ha, u are a failure!
I hate my father more and more. And this morning, I just shouted back at him. Shouted like how my brother shouted when he was really pushed to a corner. When I was shouting, it just didn't felt like it was actually me shouting..I was thinking about other things when I was shouting...hrum..I don't know how to explain, but it just felt like I was possessed. I couldn't even remember what I shouted. My mother was the one who shut my father up..I guessed she knew that I was diff from the normal me, cause my nagging father suddenly kept quiet and left home.

Sometimes, I don't understand the mindsets of parents. I am just skipping school for a day and they are treating it like some fucked up big thing. Hey, I am really tired both emotionally and physically. Most importantly, the lessons I missed are nothing much. Basically, I only have 3 periods of gp lesson today.
I don't want to go to sch and feel all the pressure. They just don't understand..and if they just came over to my bed and tell me to rest well for today...I wouldn't be so depressed right now. With my sister gone to japan for half a mth, I am feeling more depressed. Its really depression..I cannot feel happiness anymore. It has been such a long time since I truly smiled. I just feel so pathetic..everything is overlapping me. I have no more strength to fight on and pave a route for myself.

Horoscopes and tarots are so accurate at times.

"Today you may be feeling a bit like a hermit crab emotionally, sze ling. The Moon and the High Priestess are making you liable to keep your thoughts and feelings to yourself rather than share them with the one you love. This is going to make it difficult to have a happy and fulfilling day! Don’t be so suspicious and things will go more smoothly. When faced with difficulties at work, you will have a tendency to be lethargic. You may be almost paralyzed when it comes to making up your mind about anything to do with your professional life. You’re passing through a temporary depression, aggravated by the Moon and the Lovers, who conspire to cloud your judgement and reduce your ability to react to events. You lack assurance and are dubious about your ability to handle things effectively. And the consequence? You are neither confident nor efficient today! "

"You mustn't expect any enormous changes today, dear Libra. However, the process you began three or four years ago will accelerate slightly. You are changing the moorings of your identity, the ideas that make you sure of who you are. Your family, background, and education no longer count as much as your own spiritual foundations. Don't be afraid of this shift - go with it"

I am really at my wits end. I have no purpose in life right now.