Been so busy in Sep that I didn't even log one post. Happy Birthday to me!

I came over to Japan when I was 27 and now I am 37. How time flies. I guess there is some significance to this milestone in some ways. Today I feel strangely motivated and yet strangely void of certain emotions. I think I know why, I am expecting to receive some extra "love" this time but of course it is kind of in my own imagination.

It's nice that my friends have sent me birthday messages. I always liked it even when I don't do much of the sending to others. Why do I still have some form of expectation when I know that it means nothing much in the first place.

I went to work, went for my favorite massage and then just came straight home. A pretty normal day, I wanted to spend it with friends but I don't really know which set of friends I wanted to hang out with so I chose to be with myself again this year.

I didn't even remember to buy a cake. I shall make do with the half price sponge cake I bought from Lawson. It is not a special day, it is a special month. So I will make my everyday special this month. It shall be my own gift to myself.